This is the entry from my personal journal the day after mother’s day:
I stood yesterday during worship at church with tears falling down my cheeks. Joy. Peace. Gratefulness. Love. SO MUCH LOVE! My mind was in two places at once…remembering the pain I felt 4 years ago and now living in the joy of motherhood! The hurt seems like it was just yesterday AND like a million years ago! I prayerfully asked God to give comfort to those experiencing heartbreak! I know too well the sadness that comes when all you desire is to be called mommy and God keeps saying no (or not yet)…it grieves your spirit and it tests your faith! Four years ago, I hated mother’s day…I realize this sounds harsh, but it’s true…it was a bitter reminder of the empty places in my heart. Back then, I dreaded mother’s day service at church…the reminders of my aching heart were endless and almost unbearable! However, as the tears fell yesterday, I was overwhelmed by emotions and in awe of God! He has worked out the details of our family in a way that only He could…His perfect plan allowed me to be part of three miracles…and they call me mommy! I also am filled with gratitude for the sacrifice and love of our very precious birth moms. I am honored to share mother’s day with two of the best women I’ve ever known…Momma Sarah and Momma Tori…I love them both to pieces! And, of course, I couldn’t celebrate mother’s day without remembering ALL my super sweet momma has meant to me! She’s the best example of what it truly means to be a mom…I am forever grateful for my beautiful, sweet momma! Praise God for ALL of His blessings on my life!!!! My heart is so full!
So I will remember the details of yesterday…here is a quick recap of the special moments from the day: woke up to Jeremy bringing me coffee in bed with a really sweet letter telling me how grateful he is to have me as a wife and mommy of our children (tears…yep!). He also said he knows how hard of a job I have and wanted me to take some time for myself…he gave me cash and strict instructions to use it for a pedicure/manicure/massage…he also gave me a Starbucks gift card. He said he wanted me to take a whole day just for me…yeah, I love him beyond words!!! He then did EVERYTHING for church prep…got all the kids bathed, dressed, fed, bags packed, etc. We then went to church for a beautiful time of worship (see above). For lunch, we went to Jeremy’s mom’s for a crawfish boil…YUMMY! Mary gave me a sweet necklace and my beautiful niece had handmade me some beautiful earrings! We had a great time and later that evening we headed to my mom’s to celebrate with her. While there, my sister and her family gave me a gift and the sweetest card that said “you’re our wonder woman”. When I opened the gift, it was a pair of wonder woman flip flops!!!!! LOVE THEM (and the flip flops too). Momma also gave me and my sister movie tickets…we all decided to have a girls night out SOON! Can't wait to spend some time with two of my best friends! At the end of the day, Jeremy asked how my mother’s day was and I said it was perfect except it was missing just one thing…I wanted a picture of me and my babies. (JT would NOT like that statement…I should have said “of me, JT, and the babies”…haha) SO, Jeremy came through again for me and took this pic…MY FAVORITE PART OF THE DAY!
Just so you know…getting a picture with 3 kids (ages 3 and under) is not easy! haha
